I had a great 2012. Many changes came in the last year and I am so happy the direction my life has taken.
One of the best choices I made was joining Knock Out Bodies. I have found a passion in pole dancing that led me to wanting a healthier body. It encouraged me to eat healthier and take fitness class to build muscles to I can nail those tricks I am learning.
Pole dancing inspired me to do things that I once thought was impossible for me, which is something I really value. I’m also so grateful to have met so many awesome people on my pole journey.
I took my first class at the cellar–a kick boxing class that my roommate dragged me to. While I was there I saw that knockout bodies was in the same building and came back the next week to try out a class. The first week of November 2011, I bought my pole membership–only one week after trying a class out. I have been going to my gym for over a year now!
Just looking at how many classes I went to each month is very motivating. The first 3 months I went on average to 11 classes. The fourth month is when I started to really have a lot of motivation and made working out a priority–I started going to 19-24 classes a month. That is awesome. I have always taken fitness classes as well pole dancing classes, and in July, I started to take harder fitness classes at least once a week.
I think the biggest challenge I have overcome this year was getting over my own brain saying that I can’t do things. Once I made the mental switch to “no I can do this”, I know I can. It was that mental switch that I needed to motivate myself. I began working on tricks I wanted to do and really try my hardest on them. I started pushing myself much harder, and I did tricks that I was too scared to do earlier. After getting over that mental barrier, I had confidence to try tricks that I struggled with and no longer felt like I was “looking like a fool”.
Many months later I took another mental step that helped me as well. It was realizing I had gained enough skills and muscles that I could basically get myself out of most things. Not always gracefully but not breaking my neck either. The moment happened when I was trying to do a trick–I think it was the holly drop–on a spinning pole, but I didn’t make it all the way and got stuck in an awkward upside down hold. My thought was “oh god I’m going to die now.” My teacher was right there helping me, she yells and said, “Point your toe!” In that moment I was like, oh, she is confident that I am not going to die and, a step beyond that, I should still be making this look pretty. I took a deep breath and figured out how to get myself out of this awkward hold that I had gotten into.
Something that I have learned about myself in this last year that surprised me is that I like to perform for people. I like the energy you get when there is a crowd watching you and the motivation to give it your all. It’s nice for people to see how far I have come as well. This surprised me because I have never done any kind of performing and always thought I would not enjoy people watching me.
In the last year, I feel like everything clicked into place. I believe I am the most mental and physically fit than I have ever been, which happened because there was the right combination of things coming together. I found a gym that inspired my motivation to go more and was the kind of working out that I really enjoy and do not look at it as a chore. I really love nailing new tricks it’s instant gratification. The drive to be able to do more tricks motivates me to eat healthier and go to fitness classed to build muscle. I have always been active but never felt so motivated as I have in this last year.
2012 has been overall great.
- Started this blog 🙂
- Preformed in Spring 2012 showcase, Fall 2012 showcase, and at Sexapolooza — a group performance, two solos and two doubles routine that I help choreographed
- Hit 1st and 2nd goal-weight and maintained those weights
- In August, I started video taping my tricks and dances –this really helped me improve
- Bought my own pole -45mm X-Pole in Titanium Gold
- Inverted for the first time
- Inverted with no hands -picture taken at Spring 2012 showcase
- Started doing inverted combos on spinning pole
- First combo I came up on my own